Love like Jesus. Continued...

Ohh! well I should be studying Geo right now... But seeing as how I was not able to get the text book that I need to study the material from for the test tomorrow... I'm just gonna post, and then study my notes that I have from that class... so anyways.. It will all be good.. :-) YAY! WOOT!! Woohoo!! la lala.... Ok yeah... anyways.. its not really a big deal tho... cause this class is uber easy..

So anyways... hrmm, yah as I heard this song on the radio at Kenley's Cumberland house today.... lol yes. This is gonna be another "What God taught James today while working at Kenley's..." so if you don't care to hear about that, then you can stop reading now.. caues that is what it is from here on out.. :-) Ok anyways.. so I've been thinking about Nicole's 2nd to last post lately.. the one about Loving people like Jesus would... and I've come to a few conclusions.. but before I can say all that, I need for you all to see this song by Jeremy Camp real quick.. You all have heard it and prolly know it well..



In only a moment truth was seen
Revealed this mystery
The crown that showed no dignity he wore
And the king was placed for all the world to show disgrace
But only beauty flowed from this place

Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands
Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands

He held the weight of impurity
The Father would not see
The reasons had finally come to be, to show
The depth of His grace flowed with every sin erased
He knew that this was why he came

Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands
Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands

And we just don't know
The blood and water flowed
And in it all He showed
Just how much He cared
And the veil was torn
So we could have this open door
And all these things have finally been complete

Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands
Would you take the place of this man
Would you take the nails from his hands,
From his hands, from his hands, from his hands...


Ok, wow... yeah, that is loving like Jesus. Something we must ask our selves... WOULD you take His place? Would you be willing to sacrifice everything for the lives of other people...people that hated you. would you be willing to say: Ok, my plans for a career, my plans to get married, my relationsip with my girlfriend/boyfriend is not as important to me than the lives of all the other people in the world that don't even know you exist. and when you die for them they still won't know that you had just saved them... their lives will go on because of you. but they will not care nor pay it any heed... And they will reject your sacrifice when they find out about it, and say, What a fool! Knowing this, now would you let someone put you up against a wooden wall, and hammer NAILS through your wrists, and then through the bone of your feet...crushing and splintering it as the metal spikes go through... and then you will hang there bleeding to death... unable to breath because your arms are stretched above you so tightly...the only way to then get a breath, is to push your WHOLE body weight aginst that nail that has stapled your feet to the wall. Now when the pressure is off your arms, you can take a gasping breathe... Then the pain of holding your self up against the steel of the nails through your feet, becomes too much, you let your self fall... but your do not fall for long...You are caught with a JOLT by the nails in your wrists...they tear and RIP the wholes in your arms even more as you come to a sudden stop... the pain is SO much at times, that that you nearly pass out... In this condition you will hang...by the nails...for HOURS, untill finally...your drown...yes you will drown...not in water... in air... you will try to breath, but the pain of pushing yourself up is now too much to even bear... and so you let yourself sufocate..

Would you take the place of this man? Would you? for to be willing to do this, is to love like Christ... Sounds impossible, right? Well on our own it is... Without the spirit of God in us, breaking away our selfish nature, we would not be able to do this.. Why? because it would be against everything that made sense to us... what would convince us to do it? gun point? No, of coarse not! Shoot me instead... Only the supernatural LOVE of God in our lives could convince us that we should do this... But still, we all have that Love in our lives.. so what is the problem? the problem is that we are not totally surrendered to the Almighty will of our Lord... We are still holding onto our lives, thinking that they belong to us... They do not however. They came from God, and back to Him they must go...THIS is what it means to be surrendered to the cause of Christ... Its just like Tamara reminded me the other day: We CANNOT live out the love of Christ. Thats just a fact.. It is impossible to do.. We must let Him live it out through us...

To Love others like Jesus, is to be willing to live the life that Jesus lived.

Would you take the place of this man?

Why did i dew this twice?

Ok, so I was just commenting on Lori & Amberly's blog, and the comment turned out so good that I decided to turn it into a post.. So here it is.. Hope ya'll enjoy!


OK! This is just freakin sad! No one has commented on the last 5 posts! So I am gonna be the hero of the world (err rather a lil house in Kiev, Ukraine) and comment! So here am I, James.. You know, if Ukraine would join the U.N., then I might be able to have an excuse to use U.N. funds in order to travel to a lil house in Kiev, Ukraine for U.N. 'reasons' of coarse.. Seeing as how I am the Secretary General, I can do what ever I want. Cause no one is higher than me in rank... So yes. When the day grows long and I am tired from trying to feed an entire country.. No wait...CRAP!!! The whole freakin' U.N.!!! Dangit! What ever, I can just borrow some money from my good ol' friend George over in the USA... Whew! Good thing I can think of answers to my problems so fast! Anyways, like I was saying....Then when I get tired of feeding a nation, I'll take a short flight over to Kiev, and then call one of my contacts. This guy named Daniel.. And make my way to the lil house in Kiev, Ukraine.. Where I will conduct some very important business before leaving again... Oh wait!!! Crap One of my contacts In Tallahassee just told me that he was in Kenley's house and someone just tried to break in the back door! Hold on a sec, let me get the coordinants, and I'll just send a nuke...


Talking on a Satellite Radio:
"pfshhhst... James, come in James."

"Copy that. Go ahead Sir."

"Get out of there as fast as you can. I'm sending a nuke to take out that guy once and for all."

"Roger that. Proceeding with hostile prejudice. Over and out."



Ok, now that I got that taken care of.. Phew, my job is so taxing... Well ok.. Time for me to go now.. James Morrow, Secretary general of The United Nations

To drink the dew, or not to drink the dew.......

Ok so Janelle is currently harrasing me on AIM about updating, so i am gonna do it now... ya i REALLY wish that I had a dew right now.. but i don;t and so i am not going to cry over it.. ok? I said OK?? OK????? dang its so hard to get any feed back from you guys.. Gosh!!....

A few weird things about me....
1. I can drink up to 13 gallons of Dr. Pepper in the span of 5 days and still sleep normaly. (and gain absolutly no weight)
2. My calander is already on Feb, and its only Jane 28th.
3. When I have to pee, I get really freaked out if people walk behind me.
4. I used to have a picture frame in my room that says "Love" on it, and i had a pic of myself from when i was 5 in it for a few months.
5. I was addicted to Mountain Dew Code Red. cause every time I would drive past the Publix on Mahan I had to stop and buy a can of it for 30 cents.

Well, i think that is enough for on day..... my work is done here...

Loves

I'm just dewing this for Lori....

A Lil closer look into the heart of this dewd.. ;)

Ok so first off, the Steelers are pretty 'tight'... (the person i wrote that for, you know who you are:-)) ok so anyways, I am gonna post a pic of myself, then I am gonna talk to ya for a while.. I wanted to post more than just one, but its proving to be a pain in the butt at the moment, and i fone have alot of time... ok so heeeeere we go!


Ehh?? you like? Don't i just look so studious?? pretty sweet, yeah? Too bad I'm not smiling, but i don't feel like taking another pic. so this on with do..

Ok so its wednesday, and in at Kenleys house in between classes..eating my sandwiches that I packed to day...(yup I packed a lunch just for you Tam ;-)) ok so I walk into K's house today, and there is this big paper bag on the couch.. actually it it the one in the pic.. so i look inside and it is FULL of contact lens solution... and Im thinking.."Where does he get stuff like this!?" this guys got all the connections that a man could ask for...especial (yes. like the 1/2 lbs. burrito from Taco Bell) his connections to a certain Guy that is fixing his house fro him.. prolly the most importand contact of all!! errr, maybe not.. stow-ever..

A lil something that you may wanna know, or maybe not. but I'm gonna share it with those of you who do care... Ok, so having had people tell me that I am an influential spiritual leader, has served to confirm what God has been showing me over time.. And that is also one of my strongest desires.. to help others to grow along with me in our faith and love of our beautiful Saviour.. yet even tho leading may be one of my strongest desires, it is also one of my greatest fears... that I will fail, that I will not be able to fullfill my calling from God.. that I will let Him and you all down...

However this is only so, in order for His strength to be made perfect in my weakness.. So that I must rely on Him for all my strengh and life. When I fall, there He will be ready to pick me up yet again and set me back on the straight path that leads to Him.

Isn't it funny how our Lord does that? He gives us a passion, yet then allows that same passion to be one of our greatest weaknesses.. This serves as proof that He alone gives us power and courage.. That all strength comes from Him. So that NO man should boast...

For those who put there faith in the Lord will soar on wings as eagles. They will walk and not grow weary, they will run and not faint...

thats not a word-for-word copy of that verse... Its the way I remember it in my mind.. so pardon me if it is not exact.

Anyways that is just a lil bit of a look into my life with God...
Ok well i have to go to class now.. OHH JOY!! 1 hour and 45 mins of American History here I come!! ;-)

The Steelers are dewin it right...

YEAH, PRETTY MUCH......

The Maxima will dew fine(I hope)

So, tomorrow is the big Student Life Conference... or more currently accepted, Student Life 'Tour'. not sure how i feel about the name change yet.. its been like 3-4 years, and im still mulling it over.. hrmmm... I am very excited about what God will teach me, as well as all the youth and other adult leaders that are going.. However, because my last class does not get out until 3:10, I shall be driving myself to Birmingham Al. in order to attend the conference.. the rest of the youth group is leaving the church at like 1:00.. I will not be able to skip that class either, because it is an accelerated term class.. meanign it will be done in the end of Feb... so each lecture is 1 hour and 45 mins long... and so much stuff is covers in one class that i can't afford to el skipo..... but anyways.. I will do the 5+ hour drivew all alone... '-( *weep*
Ok onto other matters... Im not sure how many of you thatg are going will see this post, but there is somehting that i want to show you that God has been teaching me... and since I know that God likes to show us stuff, and then reinforce it by teaching us the same thing on a youth trip shortly after, I am gonna keep an eye out so that God can amuse me.. :) I think he likes to do that.. hehe
Ok but anyway.. so as I've been spending my alone time with God, he has started to impress upon me this:
When Christ paid the price for our sins, it cost him His life... duh... However, we know that He did not fear men nor what men could to to him... yet he was so distressed that he sweated blood. and asked God to make a way for him to not have to do this... ok so what God has been showing me is that Christ was not afraid of death, nor the pain involved...Granted I'm sure he did not look forward to it or anything... The only thing that He was afraid of, was being separated from God... breaking that connection with His father. For all of eternity they had been in constant communion with each other, but now that was about to be broken for the first time... it was this that broke the heart of God, not only the Father but the Son as well.. it was this that caused our Savior so much pain... So often We tend to belittle that fact, and focus more on the fact that Christ DIED. Which is not small thing, mind you.. but i think that the bigger thing, is that he, for our sake was willing to have the Father turn his back on him... to be disowned by his own flesh and blood, if you will.. to lose a part of his very self. that was the ultimate sacrifice... for he knew that when he died, that he would be raised up three days later.. he knew that the physical pain would only be temporary.. yet when he the face of the Lord was turned from him, he cried out, "my God, my God, why have your forsaken me?" and it was then that he gave up his spirit and died. it was not the physical pain that was too unbearable.. it was the separation from the Father...
How I pray that God would make that our heart! Imagine it! To be so connected and in love with God, that the act of being separated from him would be enough for us to just die! An awesome thought that is!
Well that is my prayer for us all. For the Lord to give us that kind of desire for Him. That kind of yearning to be one with Him!
I love you guys and can't wait to see just what God has planned for each one of you... let me know what is happening with you in your own walks.. and keep me accountable.. you guys are such an encouragement to me! I would prolly not be where I am now without having you all there to keep me going, to keep me from messing up too bad.. to be like, 'James, what the heck are you thinking!?!?' ;-) and then ill be like, uhhh yeah your right.. (or atleast i Hope and pray that i will be! hehe)
Ok this has been way too long, and I will be very proud of you all if you made it through!! but as a reward fo those of you who did make it to the end.. come to me sometime, and i'll take you out and buy ya lunch.. :) but please don't tell anyone about that...they HAVE to have read the whole post to find out.. I can't be going broke and all... "I aint' finna have that!" Hehe!!!! ok bye for real my droogy droogs! Loves

A blog worth dewing AND reading...

(this is really long, but please read it) Hey there every one! How goes the war known as school? One week in.... oh joy... you know, Kenleys house is starting to look pretty good! :) yup, fun stuff.. i can't wait till it is done! that will be like the coolest hang spot ever! yup yup... ok onto a lil bit of a more serious note..
While i was working at kenleys house today, I was trying to use that time to let God speak to me, since I am there for hours on end all alone... so today I feel that God was convicting me of something that I feel i need to share with you all. whew....here we go.

In the recent past I have not been honest with you about my walk with Christ. Over the three months after my Mom died, I may have seemed to you all(prolly not tho) to have everything under control, and that my relationship with God was also fine. however that is not the case. Now i dont believe that i tried to fake it, yet i did not speak the truth when asked how i was doing.
For thew first two weeks or so after she died, my walk with Christ grew stronger, and i was trusting in His knowledge of what was best. as you may remember, i was very verbal about that then... I talked with many of you about how awesome God was and how He was going to make everything all right. I believed it then, and i believe it now. Yet as time grew on in the days to follow, i slowly began to fall away from God. Satan was using my pain to get to me, and in the midst of my confution and hopelessness i believed the lies. I began to question God, asking him why he woulds alow this...
It is scary how smooth and decietful the evil one is.. I remember interrogating God with questions as to why he would leave a 7, and 9 year old without a mother... i was not asking for myself, but on the behalf of my younger siblings... so i thought that it was alright, but that is exactly what Satan wanted me to do.. doubt God. He used any way that he could to make me believe that God did not know what he was doing.
So, as my doubt increased i slowly stoped having my quiet time, untill i was not spending any time with God at all.. I knew that i was wrong, because of everything that i have learned in my life.. yet now no matter how hard i tried, i just couldn't care anymore..
I felt so alone.. like i had no one to go to, or that no one was there. Tamara and Nicole were gone to school.. and every one here still had thier own lives to live..(I am not blaming here.. I was in the wrong, not you all) so i jsut kinda gave up. I couldn't go home caseu i could not stand to be in that house, cause it would only make me think of my mom, and the pain was just too great..
As this is happening, my coworkers at Outback, seemed to actually care about me, like they were actually real friends.. I was so lonely that I took thier friendship. I needed love, and i was not feeling Gods because i had shut him out. These friends were always inviting me to hang out with them and stuff. it seemed that they were there for me. when i needed to talk, several of them would take the time to talk after work.. and i had it in common with a few of them who had gone thro similar things... so for the next month and a half i went out with them all the time.. after work going over to TGI fridays till like 2:00 in the morning, or just staying at outback till about then... and as i did, i grew even farther from God. these "friends" were only pulling me farther away from Him... I didn't read my bible, and i didn't even rememeber to pray. i just fell right to sleep when i got home at night. the music that i listened to was Definatly not Christian.. and that just brought me farther from Christ..
Now, i knew this. I Kknew I was falling away from God, but i didn't care. I knew I should care, But I just didn't. it seemed that God had let me down. When in truth I had let Him down. He was there all the time, just waiting for me to come back. telling me over and over again that he loved me and that he would take care of me. I just refused to listen to Him.. and so i brought additional suffering upon my self.
Then, between the begining to mid November, (somewhere in there.. hehe) I broke down, i just could not stand not felling God anymore. but i didn;t know how to get back to Him. I finally let someone in one what was going on in my life. I talked to Kenley for several hours one night. I cried for a long time and told him what im telling you. and he told me that it was okay to be angry, and wonder why God would let this happen. And to question Him. But if i would listen then God would tell me. later that week I was able to go to Wednesday church for the first time in about a year, becaseu i randomly had that day off work.. While i was there, we sung this song in worship, that said something about: i have placed my faith in the lies of men. and believed that You could not save me.. or some thing like that... Well that hit me like a ton of bricks! in an instant it seemed like a cloud was washed away, and i saw jsut how stupid i was being to turn away from God. I droped down in that service and talked to Jesus for the first time in about two months.. it was so amazing! As SOON as i came back, He was RIGHT there waiting like he had been the whole time! I asked him to forgive me for doubting him. And to make me whole again like only he could. To fill that empty place again, where He used to be untill i left him..
As we all know, after something like that you don't just all of a sudden become the same Christian again that you once were.. It had injured my walk with Christ. But i started coming back to Him, and learning things that i never knew before.. I can feel His presence, and i just sit and talk to him like a friends... talking about all sorts of stuff.. I love to pray again, God is becoming a much stronger friend than i have felt Him before. Im some ways i fell i know Him better than I did back at Student Life Camp, when he was just SOO amazing! in other was i fell i have lost parts of the connection with Him that i felt then. Yet once again the Lord is alowing me to see into the lives of others with the gift of disernment that He has given me. He is Beginning to be my everything. I'm finding satisfaction in Him, and in His love. He is blessing my life in ways i never thought possible... ;-) And I can hear His leading me. I've stalled too long. All this that I have talked about, has just served as a means to slow me down, but now with Christ as my leader I will get involved with the youth, like I planned to do before my mom died. They need leadership, and some one has to take that place. I am so proud of guys like Paul and Brandon who are already on there way there! They show a great amount of leadership and love for God. I pray that you guys would not wait so long as I to understand that! Keep going like you are! And know that I will be running right beside you not only keeping you steady, but leaning on YOU for support as well! I had lost sight of the picture that we all saw of what God had in store for this generation of youth in out church, and also else-where. But Jesus has helped me to see that again! and with renewed vigor I say we plunge head first into Him. and let him finish painting His masterpeice through us! Here is something from Psalms 40 that i read in my quiet time today.
"I waited patiently for the LORD;
And He incined to me and heard my cry. He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, and He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. he put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
many will see and fear, and will trust in the LORD."

Lord, make that my prayer!
Isn't that sweet! I feel like that was written just to me! :)
Ok now, i know its cliche to put song lyrics on your blog, but I REALLY wanna share something woth you guys that has really helped me trust God more with all that has happened with my mom and stuff. And i feel that this song is true for almost any other circumstance.. :) k just a sec let me find the lyrics on line.. ;) hehe

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved
from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it,
let the hatred numb our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly
to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
We'd be held.

Thats by Natalie Grant, it called "Held".. (duh right hehe)
well my friend! I hope to be seeing each and every on of you soon! i love you all!
Peace out yo
James

There is no dew on Kenley's driveway...

Ok so this is time.. this is time.. this is time to blog again!

We choose to go to the moon..... We choose to go to the moon..... We shoose to go to the moon in this decade and do the other thing. Not because it is easy, but because it is hard....

Those are the imortal words of John F. K.... cept the not so imortal...nor interesting...nor does anyone care... especial not me... especial like the 1/2 lbs. burrito from Taco Bell...

Ok guys!! its official! I am in LOVE!!!!!
(with the afore mentioned 1/2 lbs burriot from Taco Bell) ;-) HA!! didn;t expect that did ya!?!?! =) hehe wow im funny... hrmm well maybe not.. OH! guess what!!! I am the only one in Tallahassee that if friends on face book with Mable Macaden.. :) i feel especial.. like the.....yeah nevermind...you get the picture.. Ok so im sitting in kenley's driveway on Diane's lappy right now.... caseu he is supposed to be here but he has not shown up yet... :( We should kill him . What say you!?!?!?

ok then enough said

bye from me to you :)

Im dewing Nicole's farewell, cause i forgot it on my "post" on Pauls blog...

And Nicole, a charming comrade...
When I needed someone, I found you. Our years
togeather have been short. But still I am overjoyed
for the time we have spent. It has meant alot. And
you mean alot.

It is dewn..(done)

Well ma peeps, its a new day... How does it feel? Well I am enjoying it. :) anyways I was able to get my classes for this semester! so I am really excited about that, Oh and guess what!!! this is my first semester having ALL Mon.-Wed.-Fri. classes!! :) I am thrilled 'bout that.

Uh, so how is every one doing? I am working for Kenley now.. I am repairing his new house for him... It great tho cause I know how to do all that stuff, and I kinda enjoy it..

So, Tamara is officialy the most beautiful girl in the world.. :) Im not afraid to admit it... hehe Ok so I am pretty mad bout all these leaves that randomly appeared in Kenley's courtyard..??hrmmmmm.. wonder how they got there.. maybe fall was harsh this year.. yeah, that must be it.
well i guess I will just clean them up tomorrow.. :) I already filled like 10 big bags today, and I didn't even get 1/3 of it out!! there is SOOO much =/ ok well i think that this blog is done! Farewell! My friends o...uh.... yeah nevermind ok bye

=) James

Don't dew it

Well its a new day! And what a beautiful day it is!! Good weather, (but a lil on the cold side..) Holla!! Cold sizide! :) ok I think im done with that...

K, its time for the Quote of The Day; from James....
"I feel so wierd...
"Oh, you mean with Mr. Arrow being dead and all..
"Well that; and the fact that my pants are full of star fish....
"Ugh! You and your hobbies!"

There you ahve it my friendly freinds.. :) straight from James from Muppets Treasure Island.... Such a great movie..


Hrmmm.... Oh well. i was trying to add a cool pic but this is not letting me so nm.. :(
Ok all my droogy friends.. Another day, see you i will...

oh and anyone ever wonder why they didn't just make Yoda talk normal? hehe

ok later peeps.. i love ya all

i hape my comp right now.. i trust me it IS dewing something wrong

OH la la la..... hm another day. another post... it just never changes does it... so you all see, hte reason thta i don';t post many pics on my blog is because I an on dial-up.. and it would take forever!!! but the day is not always a sad day because of that.. oh no! i tell you the truth, there are much worse things than dial-up...(im just not sure what yet...) ok my computer is REALLY making me mad.. if i click on bold text it makes it bold, but then if i UN-click it.. it stays bold!!! Same with the italics... ok well crap im just gonna go now cause this is ga..........errr..stupid.. :)

Read my last comment on Pauls blog on post: "Merry Chistmas guys :)"

Dew you has what it takes?

Sooooo... How it goes? :) yet again a post from the kitchen of the Reber's house. Ya over here for some "party", which turns out to be...we're going christmas tree-ing... i don't even know what that is! but i guess i will find out in about 40 mins when the other peeps get here. and then we go... so ya some random episode of Cheers is on the telly...and everyone is watching it...cept me...cause i never seen any of them...but i think i hate them...never been a big fan of those type shows...cept VERY occationally...when im deathly ill...and can't get up from the couch to change the station...and That 70's Show is on...then i mourne...for myself... k enough with the fragmented sents. Dang, this keyboard is killing me... :<( Vwau-la!!! I call this one, "The Lil Hitler" heh.. :) Texas was cool, but home is cool... k time for a picture to be posted... let me surf the web for a min to find a good one...

Ok... WHAT is the meaning of this!!!!!!!!! Who put this on my blog?!?!?!?!?
It HAD to be Paul!!! only he is obsesed with a goose!!!! Ok Paul.....fine....two can play this game...prepare for war..(and please don't put wemon and children on the front line)


Now then i must prepare the mind and body of the United Nations for the rigorous event which I have so lovingly named, "The Paul Wars".......