Ok so I now know for sure what my gift of discernment is for.... It was given to me so that I can know when, and what about, to pray for people without them even saying.. and not only that, but to also for sure get others involved in praying as well... well anyways, as many of you know, i first realized, with the help of Todd, at SLC, what this gift was... I had been experiencing it at work with this one person, but i had no idea that it was anything... just thought I was feeling sorry for the person that was going trough a lil bit of a rough relationship... so anyways yah... I would ask all of you to join me in praying for this girl at TCC... I have never met her. Never even spoken to her.. I did not know her name till today, when someone told me that they think it is Brandy... so anyways.. I have seen Brandy there for a couple semesters.. And back then, me and someone else, jokingly nicknamed her "Miss In-control" cause she always looks so confident, so together, so to-her-self because she has no reason to talk to other people that she doesn't know.. and this is what everyone sees her as... But as I watched her today, she looked just the same. in control of everything, together, with it, just fine. But I saw her differently. the outside mask was suddenly stripped away, and I saw this girl, so lonely, so insecure, just wanting someone to love her for who she is, rather than who he is because he is with her...SO to cover up how insecure and lonely she is, she puts on this face off having it all together, and that she doesn't need anyone.. But in her eyes there was such pain and just a sense of complete, "lostness", not knowing what to do.. Now she has this boyfriend, who's facebook profile says somethin as follows: "yeah, my girlfriend is fine isn't she? and she looks great naked. So stay off b**ches...."
Thats the love that she has found..that is what she is trying to fill the whole in her heart with.. he only likes her for who she makes him, because he is dating her.
What i see is just that she wants to be loved for who she is..not what she is..she is searching, I can see that.. She needs Christs love. the love that can make her feel beautiful, that can make her full... The ONLY love that will fill the lonelyness and longing inside of her.. He, Jesus Christ, is what she is searching for.. She just doesn't know it... He ahs the EXACT kind of love that she is longing for... the kind of love that will give her meaning in life... the kind of love that can change the world...
Now like i said, i have NEVER even spoken to her.. but i am commiting to praying for her untill i see God do something in her life.. so i ask that you all will pray with me on this.. pray that God wil continue to touch her heart, and that He will begin to show her that it is His love that she needs and wants... And pray for me, that I wil be willing to be used by God in whatever way he will in this situation... I would Love to see this girl come out of a life of sinfull nothingness, and into the light of life that comes from her Savior Jesus Christ...Who when He hung on that Cross, He thought of her.. he thought of how precious she is to Him, and of the fact that He was about to give His life, so that she might have LIFE... Pray that somehow someone, (be it me or someone else..i don't care. all i want is to see her come to Christ.. I want NO glory.. if i could just be completely unseen in the back, just as a prayer warrior for her soul.. then i will choose that.. however I am willing to be the administrator of the love of Christ to her) so pray that somehoe, someone would be able to show her just what Christ thought as He hung on the cross, and died for her... and if i be the means that God uses to bring her to Him, then pray for me that I would be able to let Christ speak through me, and that i would have the courage to, throught the strength of Christ, go against all the powers of this world, and the powers of the devil, that want to keep her from the truth..
I have no idea why God chooses to do the things that He does... all I know is that he gave me a look into the heart of a hurting girl, and then from there, let me decide if i was gonna do anything about it.. at first i just thought, 'oh.. huh, yah she seems lost and insecure behind her mask.. but what am I gonna do about it...' but through that day, as I was at Kenley's house working, God kept bringing to my mind that, Hey, I could pray for her... and so i told God, that yeas i could, and i would.. so I am just asking all of you to join me in it.. I have no idea how long it will take... we may never even see the results untill we get to heavan and look over to see her standing there before her Savior, cleansed and forgiven... In which arriving there, was in no small part due to the faithfull prayers of His saints.. Ok, well i think you are prolly about to die drom reading so much, so i will leave you with this.. it says in the Bible, that the ear of the Lord is attentive to the prayers of the righteous.... so let us pray with hearts full of the spirit of the Living God! I love you guys, hasta la pasta.
